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The Los Angeles Times have written a piece on Fantasia Barrino amidst her drug overdose two weeks ago and the release of her new album Back to Me.

Fantasia was interviewed for the article which discusses what exactly happened when news hit the internets that she attempted suicide. Barrino breaks down her relationship with Antwaun Cook and discusses how she’s getting her life back in order.

Check out some of the interview after the jump

On reaching her  breaking point:

“I always covered up everything so well,” Fantasia said, sipping a glass of Malbec after she taped “Lopez Tonight” on Wednesday and returned to her Beverly Hills hotel. “I’m always the bubbly life of the party. And, for so long, I pushed and pushed and pushed. And, this day, I had no push in me. Look at all this stuff I’ve been through at the age of 26. All of it just overloaded.”

The days after the drug overdose:

Before the world learned that Fantasia had overdosed in a suicide attempt on Aug. 9, she had spent three days locked in a guest room in her house, refusing to eat, drink or talk to anyone. Her best friend, her mother and her manager reached out to her many times, but she says she has no recollection of anything they said to her because she was “zoned out.” Her cousin had helped by picking up her 9-year-old daughter, Zion, and taking her out for the day.

After news hit about her relationship with a married man:

At the time, I wasn’t thinking about anybody,” she said, tears welling in her eyes.  “I was so numb. I was so out of it. I’ve never been to that place before. It was so scary. It was the darkest place that anybody would want to be. I wasn’t thinking about anybody. Not even my momma. My momma usually has that power. She’s an evangelist, a pastor, she usually has the power to say a prayer and bring me out of something. She says she prayed for me that day. That’s how out of it I was — I didn’t hear nothing they were saying. And she can usually bring me out of things, but this day, I just kept thinking, ‘I’ve been trying so hard. And every time, I get up, how many licks can I take? How many more punches? How many more blows?’ That’s like a fighter when he’s in the ring. He can’t take but so many punches. Sometimes they take a punch that knocks them out. And I think that day I just got knocked out.”

On the future:

“I can make you this promise: I won’t do that again,” she said, fighting tears. I gotta see my daughter walk across the stage and get her high school diploma and she’s got to go to college. I got to see that! I’ve been a single mom for nine years. It’s just me and her. There’s so much I want to do. I can hang in.”

For the full article click here.

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